
I wanted to share a little more of my thoughts and feelings about Ka'imi's birth, rather than just a report of what happened. So here it is.
When I was on my mission (10 years ago - can you believe it?) a companion and I had this saying that certain things were
love notes from Heavenly Father. We thought of it as evidence in our lives that Heavenly Father truly is aware of our lives and loves us. It is a little thing or big thing that happens and we remember and realize that He delights in His children and loves them.
Well, I have decided that Ka'imi is our love note. We couldn't be more thrilled to have her as part of our family. I think about what has led us to this point and I know the timing of it all was in Heavenly Father's hands.
A few weeks ago as I approached my due date, I was somewhat stressed about when she would actually be born. I wanted so much for Kyle's qualifying exams to be over with first, but I prayed that she would come at a time that was good for her and for our family. She couldn't have come at a better time. Kyle was done with his exams, got things tied down at work, and the president (his boss) was going out of town for a week. With this timing Kyle was able to have 8 working days of paternity leave. I honestly thought I'd be lucky to have him a couple days.
The labor and delivery couldn't have gone better. It was the best experience of the 4 deliveries. I am recovering well and Ka'imi is perfect.
Love note.
Other thoughts . . .
I am sure from my many posts it is no secret that I adore my three boys. I couldn't love being their mother any more. But there really is something special about having a daughter. It goes way beyond the excuse to buy pretty girl clothes and make hair accessories.
As background I have to share an experience. Three Christmases ago (6 months after I had Ikaika) I was sending out our yearly Christmas letter. One of the people on my email list was my biological father who lives in Mongolia. I have never met him and we only started communicating through email when I was in college. His response to my letter was a bit surprising. He thanked me for the letter but wondered why I would wish him Merry Christmas when I knew he wasn't a Christian. That began a series of emails where I tried to share with him how even though we didn't share the same faith we were both trying to live good lives and do good in this world. Those emails led me to think a lot about who I had become because of the influence of my mother. My life would be completely different had I been raised by my father. I also thought of the roles that mothers and fathers have in rearing children. By divine design it is the mother who is responsible to teach her children. As much as Kyle tries and does try to spend as much time with the boys as he can, I simply am with them 10 times more than he is. I thought about my sons and how though they would have influence in families of their own one day, it would be their wives who will teach their children. It was with this realization that my desire to have a daughter of my own became so real and meaningful. I wanted a daughter so I could raise a mother. When I hold Ka'imi in my arms I am honored and humbled to be her mother. I honestly pray that I will do it right and in a way that Heavenly Father will be pleased.
Being a wife and mother has truly been the most meaningful and satisfying part of my life. I love my husband. I love Kekoa. I love Ikaika. I love Iosepa. And I love Ka'imi.